Struggling Against Laziness.

I think I should appreciate my life. But its not like, I'm ungrateful for being surrounded by a lovely family, and being healthy, it is just, I have an adventurous soul. I don't quite like it that I have to do my daily routine. (School--home--laptop--homework--study--Sleep so on, so on.) And apparently lazy have come to my life and being a part of my life. And I am very disappointed at myself for being lazy. Despite the fact that I am lazy, I'm still responsible enough for what I have done. And I was not posting blog post for a past few weeks, its not because the laziness, but that's because I have no time to do it. Apparently, I have to stick with my daily routine.

I, like I said before, have an adventurous soul. I wish I live in the WWII, where people can just struggling to prevent death, not just like me, against the laziness, or against the subjects, such as physics, chemistry, or biology.

Monday Night.

This, my friend, is a rare night. Because I have nothing to do. I have no homework and the midterm test is done. But I still worry about the result, because, as I know that the report card will be given this Friday. As far as I feel, October have been a very worst month. From my opinion, I don't think that a formal education is always important. Sometimes it's not. But why in the name of Merlin, everyone make a big deal about it? I mean, studying about a gravity doesn't help me in my life. My physics teacher said that my grades are going sag which is pretty much rubbish. Enough about complaining, I have an announcement. My room is finally re-painted!! I'm well aware that it's quite the same colour, but whatever. I will put some of Harry Potter posters as soon as I am free. I mean, like, weekend. Something like that. And I am definitely going to once again, re read the series! I missed them very much. And do you know what else that I miss? Shopping and Mall! I really miss it. And of course, hanging out with my friend.

Bloody Sunday

It's morning and it's sunday. I know that's mean tomorrow I have biology test and, I still have a formal proposal to do. It's for literature. Anyway, this week have been very evil to me. Not to mention I still have a homework and tasks in the middle of the mid-term test. But Also, Harry Moseley's dead. I had to write this because he is very inspirational. He has a brain cancer. It's very sad indeed that I know that he's dead. But I'm sure he's in the better place now. Resting calmly.

Love VS Obsessed

Have you ever wondered, that sometimes when we love someone so much and turns out that they don't even know us at all, is a real love or not? I believe, I'm not the only one that had cry over love. If you have not cry over love, you have no heart at all. What I mean by love, is, not only blokes, but also everyone that you love. But then again, I'm saying that not everything that you 'thought' it was love, was love. Some of them was just obsession. Especially for a young lady like us, whom fangirling over some blokes, in the manner of speaking.

I personally think it is difficult to know whether the feeling that we feel is love or obsession. But I, maybe, could define it a little bit. But this is just what I think about these two things. For me, love is love. A beautiful feeling. I knew it was love if we care about someone. But the again, so does obsession. If you are obsessed with someone or something, you wouldn't let anyone dare to hurt someone that you care. I reckon, the different between love and obsession is acceptance.

If it was obsession, you would let someone to do something even though it hurts you, to make someone happy. While love, well, you would do the same thing but in the end you get something that worth it. While obsession? You get nothing but entertained them. You see. That's the different between love and obsession.

Love is love. Obsession is just an addiction; fancying someone that you will worshipping them.

For the record, I asked my followers on formspring about this topic but they seem confused. But then again, so do I. But I believe if you find your true love, you'll understand about Love and Obsession.

Believe.

I'm a honest person, and I love honest person too. I love to be honest. I mean, if you don't like me, just say it to me. I'd prefer you slap me on my cheeks than slap me on my back. But some peoples are so sensitive. They want a life with a happiness in every second. I mean, don't take life seriously. No one has ever a life forever, anyway.

Life's hard. Everybody knew it. But, not everybody understand perfectly what does it mean. Even me, but I slowly learning what does life mean. Around 6 PM, I was tagged by my friend, about the grandma that told about a quality of the pencil to her. But the point is..

Life never been so flawless as ever.

There's a challenge, there's a fear, there's a drama, there's a pain, there's a cry, there's a sad, there's a hurt. But don't ever look life that way. I know I see life that way, that's why I'm never grateful enough what God given to me. I feel ashamed. You, and I and everyone should know the other side of the world..

There's a happiness, there's a laugh, there's a love, there's cheers, there's an arm that will hug you tight after you sad, there's a rainbow after a little rain, there's a sunshine after the dark night.

For truly with hardship comes ease; truly with hardship comes ease. (Al-Inshirah: 5-6)

So, keep believing in everything. As long as earth still spinning, everything COULD happen. Only if you still believe in dream, trust in yourself, and be confident. And of course, a little bit of luck.

So, realize now before you late, before God call you. I believe God will find us a happiness.

Like my best friend said,

"Life's hard, and If isn't hard its not a life, then."