Monday Night.

This, my friend, is a rare night. Because I have nothing to do. I have no homework and the midterm test is done. But I still worry about the result, because, as I know that the report card will be given this Friday. As far as I feel, October have been a very worst month. From my opinion, I don't think that a formal education is always important. Sometimes it's not. But why in the name of Merlin, everyone make a big deal about it? I mean, studying about a gravity doesn't help me in my life. My physics teacher said that my grades are going sag which is pretty much rubbish. Enough about complaining, I have an announcement. My room is finally re-painted!! I'm well aware that it's quite the same colour, but whatever. I will put some of Harry Potter posters as soon as I am free. I mean, like, weekend. Something like that. And I am definitely going to once again, re read the series! I missed them very much. And do you know what else that I miss? Shopping and Mall! I really miss it. And of course, hanging out with my friend.

Bloody Sunday

It's morning and it's sunday. I know that's mean tomorrow I have biology test and, I still have a formal proposal to do. It's for literature. Anyway, this week have been very evil to me. Not to mention I still have a homework and tasks in the middle of the mid-term test. But Also, Harry Moseley's dead. I had to write this because he is very inspirational. He has a brain cancer. It's very sad indeed that I know that he's dead. But I'm sure he's in the better place now. Resting calmly.

Hot Chocolate in a Cold Night.

Sometimes It is a good idea to relax and calm when everything seems to be fussy and complicated. I always remembered what the old great man named Albus Dumbledore said 'happiness can be found even in the darkest of time.' I have never clearly see it but I perfectly understand I could see a glim of happiness.

My teacher told me a story about a man, the chosen . He was nearly perfect man, as nobody is perfect, in the manner of speaking. I was very ashamed that I always complained of everything that I had. I think I am just not grateful enough for everything that God has gave to me. I should be more grateful.

I know this post is completely unrelated. But I have no idea what to write and I just want to write. I could write a story but it will took a long time to finished it as I am in the middle term test now. It was quite hard, actually. As I saw the questions, are all essay. I know I shouldn't talk about this, but then, what am I going to write?

And now, I am proud to say that I don't know what to write. Fin.

Love VS Obsessed

Have you ever wondered, that sometimes when we love someone so much and turns out that they don't even know us at all, is a real love or not? I believe, I'm not the only one that had cry over love. If you have not cry over love, you have no heart at all. What I mean by love, is, not only blokes, but also everyone that you love. But then again, I'm saying that not everything that you 'thought' it was love, was love. Some of them was just obsession. Especially for a young lady like us, whom fangirling over some blokes, in the manner of speaking.

I personally think it is difficult to know whether the feeling that we feel is love or obsession. But I, maybe, could define it a little bit. But this is just what I think about these two things. For me, love is love. A beautiful feeling. I knew it was love if we care about someone. But the again, so does obsession. If you are obsessed with someone or something, you wouldn't let anyone dare to hurt someone that you care. I reckon, the different between love and obsession is acceptance.

If it was obsession, you would let someone to do something even though it hurts you, to make someone happy. While love, well, you would do the same thing but in the end you get something that worth it. While obsession? You get nothing but entertained them. You see. That's the different between love and obsession.

Love is love. Obsession is just an addiction; fancying someone that you will worshipping them.

For the record, I asked my followers on formspring about this topic but they seem confused. But then again, so do I. But I believe if you find your true love, you'll understand about Love and Obsession.

Highly Logic.

When someone talks cynically to you, you will be strongly mad. Honestly, that happened to me, well, not just me, but everyone a lot. Every single day. It wasn't quite polite, I reckon. When someone annoys us. Well, we will be annoyed. And that is obvious. But how about we annoyed people? being cynical? bully? and the other bad things? I believe none of us aware that we've hurt people's heart. In order to do so, we needed to know the bad(s) and the good(s).

Sometimes people taking a joke seriously. And I aware that it obviously offending someone's feeling. But I assume that is very excessive, indeed. It's not like every time that we did something has to make the other people smile. I didn't say that we had to bully them or make them frowned. Because I am an anti-bully myself. Everyone has a problems and you have to realize that it is a big deal if you decided to go bully them. Then again, I felt so sorry for you that in three years you will be ashamed for being a bully.

An amazing day in Bandung

I just got home from Bandung City which is far from Jakarta, where I am now. And I thought Bandung will be boring. Well, its a beautiful city. No lie.

Its a school program, actually. The trip to there was quite boring, the boys are just so madly crazy. They entertained all of us somehow. After we arrived, we go to this milk factory. There too much cow there. I want to puke because it smell so horrible. Really. There is a cute baby cow there. She just born yesterday. I got a picture of her but my dad deleted it, he thought it was useless picture.

After we left this factory we go to this Angklung workshop place which is super awesome and made me in love with this city:)

Here's the video:

Anyway, the play 5 Indonesia folk song which is:
1. Bungo Jumpo from Aceh.
2. Pak Ketipak Ketipuk from West Sumatra
3. Kicir - Kicir from Jakarta
4. Suwe Ora Jamu from Central Java
5. Yamko Rambe Yamko from Papua

there was also a wayang demonstration which like in 15 minutes because the real one takes 7 hours. I wonder who will ever watch that until the end and don't feel sleepy at all. And we go to Ciwalk Mall and have so dinner. then we going home. I lose my voice during the trip. (I scream a lot, I know) It was so crazy. I just love to pranking my friends, and it isn't fun anymore when they pranked me. okay. that was not nice. But I know it was just a joke, I don't feel offended or anything. This is the best moment from High School so far.

Believe.

I'm a honest person, and I love honest person too. I love to be honest. I mean, if you don't like me, just say it to me. I'd prefer you slap me on my cheeks than slap me on my back. But some peoples are so sensitive. They want a life with a happiness in every second. I mean, don't take life seriously. No one has ever a life forever, anyway.

Life's hard. Everybody knew it. But, not everybody understand perfectly what does it mean. Even me, but I slowly learning what does life mean. Around 6 PM, I was tagged by my friend, about the grandma that told about a quality of the pencil to her. But the point is..

Life never been so flawless as ever.

There's a challenge, there's a fear, there's a drama, there's a pain, there's a cry, there's a sad, there's a hurt. But don't ever look life that way. I know I see life that way, that's why I'm never grateful enough what God given to me. I feel ashamed. You, and I and everyone should know the other side of the world..

There's a happiness, there's a laugh, there's a love, there's cheers, there's an arm that will hug you tight after you sad, there's a rainbow after a little rain, there's a sunshine after the dark night.

For truly with hardship comes ease; truly with hardship comes ease. (Al-Inshirah: 5-6)

So, keep believing in everything. As long as earth still spinning, everything COULD happen. Only if you still believe in dream, trust in yourself, and be confident. And of course, a little bit of luck.

So, realize now before you late, before God call you. I believe God will find us a happiness.

Like my best friend said,

"Life's hard, and If isn't hard its not a life, then."